diplomacy & expectations

Today I’m indulging in some me-time. As in, introspection and at moments some very real pity-partying.

I’ve been challenged today to become more. The challenger noted that I don’t let people see the real me. This person also said that many times I come across as “demanding.” Wow.

I guess I do come across as hard and unyielding. What people don’t know is that there is no one I’m more demanding of or more hard on than me. I know what I’m capable of and I expect a LOT from me. I guess that overflows to others. I need to work on that. I want to continue to expect the best and most from people. I happen to believe that God expects that from us. My failure is in not letting people know that if they fail to meet my expectations, there is love and forgiveness waiting.

My soul is pierced with a sense of urgency that we don’t have time. We are entering the last days and we have so many people to reach. Time is increasingly of the essence. We must be, MUST be about our Father’s business.

So, I’m going to try. I shall try to be more diplomatic. If you tell me you will do something, though — expect me to contact you to be sure you’re working on it. And if I tell you I’ll handle something, I will expect you to do the same. I will say thank you for accomplishing the goals you set forth and I will learn how to do more than delegate, and instead empower you to do more, be more and excel beyond me. Lives are at sake. Eternal lives.