Fear of missing out

This week has started off to be just like any other week. Work on website, work on newsletter, work on bulletins, work on writing — general busy-ness. Add in the waiting on Tuesday for a bed to be delivered and set up, and don’t forget packing for the trip we leave on Wednesday and stay on through Sunday.

I’m quite comfortable with all of the above, except that “stay on through Sunday” bit. See, we’re going to the metropolis of Anderson, South Carolina so that I can attend the Unleash Conference at New Spring Church. Then, since this date falls just a few days before our 19th wedding anniversary, we thought this would be a good time to have an “anniversary” trip, and Voila! It is planned!

My problem is, the house we’ve rented out on Lake Secession is not wired. Oh, it’s got electricity and such, but there’s no Internet. Not even sure about the cell phone signal. I’ve told several people I’m excited about this weekend of disconnect, but what I haven’t shared is my FEAR of this disconnect.

We’ll watch TV some, we’ll walk, we’ll talk. But I won’t be connected. I won’t be able to check in on people I know, friends I care about, family I love with the flip of a switch and that makes me ….. nervous.

In all honesty, I’m afraid I’ll miss out on something: miss hearing a story, miss being involved in something, miss a laugh, miss a truth, miss something. It’s the same fear that has had me stay up later than everyone else and get up earlier than everyone else most of my life.

Fear of missing out. And I think that somehow, in the midst of avoiding missing out, I do just that. Time for some balance.

Anyone else feeling that?

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